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03/AUG/25: It's Autumn to me. My lockscreen is spooky scary skeletons and I've been listening to songs like this.

04/JUL/25: Started working. It's chaos. Mostly out of our control and our manager is taking the brunt of it and we're all exhausted. Although now have some down time. It seems either we're all go and it's all going wrong / a million miles an hour OR there is nothing to do. Need to make the most of the nothing!

28/JUN/25: I'm so ill it's not even funny!!!!! And have had no time for the site. Maybe when I'll be stuck in hell (working in London away from all of my friends) I'll have some time for the site. Gotta make some changes around here!

08/MAY/25: I forget how much external things affect me, like the autism really kicks in and makes me physically ill when my bed time is getting fucked and I'm not getting any alone time. My body is fighting back. Also maybe the emotional stress?? Therapy is great but realising how my parents messed my up is hard to deal with. So sorry that I haven't updated the blog yet. I'll be making a Scotland post next week! It's so beautiful here I honestly love the mountains so much.

27/APR/25: Aesthetic yoyoingI keep going back and forth on how simple I want the site to be. I want it to be a representation of me but I also want it easy on the eye but not boring and I just don't know where to land. I think maybe thinking about the function of the site more will help me land on a form? But for now, I apologise that the background keeps changing (tbh I'm more sorry for me and all the time I put in to crediting the last background lol). Maybe I should make an "archive" for the site where I could keep previously used assets? Then I'll always be able to see the background.

10/APR/25: I wish I had a sibling, I wish I had a best friend, I wish I wasn't so lonely. No. I wish I could call my friends, I wish I had the gaul to call my friends. I want to know them again. I fear the distance that distance has caused will be irreversable. Only we can make that distance stop.

14/MAR/25: I wanna watch MLP, I wanna read Homestuck, I want to make fanart, I want to be cringe, I want to let go.

20/JAN/25: I had the best nap of my life. It revived me. I normally hate naps, I always feel worse physically and disorientated after one (I do love nap reviewz though!) so only take them when my body forces me to. This day I was emotionally exhausted. As well as completing an essay I was struggling with my interpersonal relationships and this nap,, It gave me so much clarity. And I got a text that I was grateful for. And to arrise in the sunshine with such calm was wonderful.